I still have yet to hear anything from cvs, where supposedly I'm employed. If they dont call me back this will be the second time in this job search that I've been led on and then stood up by a job. Usually I could insert some humorous euphanism about my love life following that, but happily things are looking up in that department.

I'm still trying to decide whether I want to take today off from working at ceramics. Which is ironic because I havent managed to finish a single thing since I got my wheel, although I've been working plenty. But between playing nursemaid for my mom, fill in mom for my sister, and running the house, all of the things that I start end up drying out halfway through the process of finishing them since I'm so often interupted.

However, this week is definately looking up, even if I'm getting frusterated with my schedule. Wednesday I'm going to a lecture on the DIY feminist media of the 90's, and this weekend I get to go to gov school for an undetermined amount of time. Hopefully that includes seeing j, but I'm not sure yet. She put together a film screening at the school, and is beyond scared that absolutely noone will show up. Although a) I'm sure people will , and b) shes doing it as a part of her humanities project, so theres going to be elective credit given for going. which means it rides that fuzzy line between class and not-class, I'll be the only non-student coming, and all of my favorite teachers will be there (thats a nice facet, but a really really weird facet.) It feels really beyond strange to be occasionally going to classes and seeing a girl at the high school I graduated from. And I dont know how to navigate between seeing people that I am already really close to there, and going down there to see her.

Although I must say, it would help me to feel a little less pathetic if when those things do happen, and people do see me and ask me what I'm up to, I could say something other than running a house, packing lunches, and having my mother drive me everywhere. Actually, thats probably more of the problem than anything else, its just that showing up at my old high school really illuminates it.