I feel so skint.
It's like, I feel like I'm standing at the precipice of a great mountain screaming to the top of my lungs...and all around me are people who are in my life, not even paying attention or listening to my screams.
Yes, I feel true and utter loneliness. And I feel like no one really takes my emotions seriously. Like everything I do or think or say or feel is a complete joke to them. Emotions are scary things and people have such, such difficulty dealing with their own let alone other people's. And I'm effing tired of it. It's a very...hard existence, because I'm not totally alone, I just feel that sudden coldness that comes at the end of the day and makes me question why I'm even allowed to live anymore.
I feel cold inside too...but every now and then there's an inch of warmth and love and happiness that finds its way through. I just want someone to bloody fill me up. I want someone who gives me that feeling you get after you have just drunk hot chocolate.