I'm always asked why I have to be so loud
about who i am. My sole response is that I feel led to say what i need to say. I really don't know know why I am like this it's just me. I came out scared and not wanting to talk to anybody about who I was. Now I am the opposite. I have been called a Fag, Queer, Fudge Packer all things that should hurt me but with a cool head I explain what those words mean to me and what it does to society. I recently was at my parents house and my little brother was talking about how he kicked a FAGS ASS. I said to him that his hate and homophobia is what starts the chain of events that lead to a 15 year old boy getting shot by a classmate, a college kid getting killed and hung to dry in wyoming. Of course he didn't understand or didn't care because quite obviously I am going to hell just because I am attracted to guys. Despite the names, the associations, and no rights as a tax paying american, I am going to stand up for who I am, and I will stand up for everyone's rights. In essence I am going to say what I need to say. My mother asked me a couple months ago, David you are so loud about being gay what if someone kills you or beats the crap out of you, I just wish you would keep it to yourself. My response is what I live by. Mom, If I don't speak up who will, and if I die standing up for rights then I guess I die but It will bring another story to the news about what homophobia leads to. Im not afraid to keep on living, in the words of MCR.