I can't believe that midterms are over for me, its crazy. My freshman year of college is almost over, scary stuff. I think I'm doing pretty well. The only class I'm worried about is psych, the midterm was mad hard, but all the other ones i think i did fine on. My goal is to get two As and two B+s though if i screw up psych I might be in trouble...

So last fri I want to this bar with a bunch of my friends and it was so much fun!! And i got in the best conversation with one of my friends about why she is attracted to guys and why I'm attracted to girls ect.
It was light-hearted of course but very interesting none the less.

And that conversation got me thinking:
Why do i like girls?
1. sensitive, caring nature - I love having guy friends but they are sooo mellow, granted I don't like drama either but they they just shrug everything off as if its no big idea -- hehe i always feel like I'm over re-acting when i'm upset about something and taking about it with my guy friends
2. body -- kind of obvious right? just everything about a girl's body is so sexy, and they way they walk -- just so elegant -- they are gorgeous -- from their eyes to their smile to every other part of their body -- also the very aura of girls, their soft skin, the way they carry themselves ahhh
3. personality -- girls are just so caring and warm, and thoughtful, and best of all complicated -- i like a challenge, I like complex people -- and i love, love, love girls who appear a certain way, like way hipster girls, or business majors, or arty girls (who put on a front but are mad shy) that is the cutest thing everrrrr -- that shy smile makes my heart melt
3. clothes, style, ect: i'm a sucker for the old school or laid back prep (non-mall of course) and the arty girl, but not like full on, just aspects..

I know these make no sense at all and are basically combined but these are just random things I'm attracted too -- can you tell I don't have a girlfriend :p

As in actual gay news in my life, none, which of course is such a big shocker right? (sarcastic tone) Honestly I've realized that while i sometimes am lonely, and wish I could be with someone, right now I'm not ready to "come out" anymore. Next year i will force myself to join a group (blahh i don't want to but I see no other options --there are no lesbians here --and i feel like the only way I'll meet anyone is through one of those) So that's that, It would be pretty awesome to meet someone before that but w/e. I'm waiting for the molly to my shane if you know what i mean...