I have come to terms with the fact that I can't make everyone happy. That my ex is not gonna magically disappear from the face of the earth anytime soon, that my grandma and my mom will continue to fight about me, and that I am not invincible! I learned that as gifted as I am when it comes to volleyball there is always someone better. I also learned that my aunt is completely clueless about her daughter.

Onto the purpose of this entry. My friend Sarah made plans for a group dinner, where everyone shows up with a guest. So that means I am going to have to stay and eat with people I'm not particularly fond of. I can see it now, two hours of awkward conversation and periodic uncomfortable silence, while dining on what I guess to be Sarah's love of Italian cuisine. With everyone from Sarah's girlfriend to my cousin Lexi and her boyfriend, to me and Heather, to Jesse and some random chick from her high school, to Jesse's little sister and her boyfriend. There are some other people suppose to come too, but I hope they don't. I pray that I can last through dinner and make it out without having to speak to Jesse.