Ok well im an FtM transgender and i will be comming out to my family soon seeing as i cant start treatment until they ALL know...im scared shitless because when i came out as a lesbian 2 years ago i got the shit beat out of me by my father, im scared of what they will do this time. Im the oldest of 5 and my siblings look up to me, I have a litle brother who is 3 and im TERRIFIED that if i come out my mother will throw me out and never let me see him again. My little sister doesnt want much of anything do with me as it is and the fact that im only 17 is killing me because i cant do anything i want to start my transition until im 18.....I want to get on T as fast as possible because being stuck in this fucking female body sucks ass i HATE it with a passion, there have been times where i have wanted to takes a razor and cut away what is wrong with me.
But yea this is about me wanting to come out to my family, all my friends know and support me, I have a really close friend who is more than likely going to be my GF soon who supports me and is gender neutral. I just dont know how to come out to my family, i know im expecting the worst but thats all i know to expect....can some one PLEASE help me with this, even some good words of advice would be enough to help me out because right now im tearing my hair out of my head worried.... my mother knows im trans but she is in EXTREAM denile and i mean to the point that if it gets brought up in anyway she flips out on me yelling and screaming, i wanted to tell my grandparents the other night while i was staying with them and my sister but we got into an arguement over religion and that killed it.... GYAH!!!! Great now im just ranting...oh well it makes me feel better but i just dont know what to do...... I dont live with my dad any more but im still scared he is going to hunt my ass down and kill me over this.....SOME ONE PLEASE HELP ME!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!