I don't know if anyone will read this. All I know is that I have to vent. I spent three hours trying to convince myself that it didn't mean anything. I purposely kissed my ex,Jesse, right in front of my somewhat current, Heather. I don't know why I did it. All I know was that I was pissed about something stupid and then I kissed Jesse. It was so weird. I mean you know how you can kiss someone unwillingly and they pull away,well Jesse didn't pull away. I was counting on Jesse to pull away she was suppose to PULL AWAY! Seriously I was trying to prove a point that we have both moved on,but I was wrong since she didn't pull away. Now I look like a complete ass and feel like bad. This wouldn't have happened if my friends hadn't kept assuming that I wasn't over Jesse. I don't get it, she was suppose to pull away! WHY DIDN'T SHE PULL AWAY.....