I've decided all my journal titles will be song titles.

So, this is officially my first entry.
I came out officially in 8th grade, so last year. I'm pretty certain I'm gay, but I have a problem with the label.

Okay, so this was in this book we're reading in history:
"...preferences do not necessarily entail avoidances...I see no evidence that people endowed with opposite-sex preferences are also endowed with a predisposition to loathe and avoid same-sex relationships. And this holds the other way as well. That is, I strongly doubt that the small numbers of humans who are predisposed to prefer same-sex relationships are born with phobic tendencies toward the opposite sex. I doubt, in other words, that there are any obligatory modes of human sexuality at all outside of those imposed by cultural prescription."
-Marvin Harris, Our Kind
most of the book is pretty science-y but it's actually pretty cool. Like, explaining the evolution of everything in our culture. Is it bad to actually enjoy my history class nowadays?

Anyways, I side with Marvin Harris. I think everyone is pretty much bisexual. I feel no need to specify that I'm gay because I certainly could be attracted to the right girl.
Quite simply, my sexuality is:
mostly penises.

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I'm 15. I'm shy at only the worst possible moments, but I'm proud of the fact that I've become very social and friendly otherwise. I relate to people older than me more often than those my age (I'm sorry, but I could really care less who's dating who, or who said what, or any of that crap. It's a waste of time.)
i'm an optimist. if i was a pessimist i would be dead by now. I wouldn't have made it through half the stuff I've been through.

I'm proud of the fact that I handle just about everything well.
If my parents died I would probably be off suicide watch within a week.
I dearly love to laugh. I'm a happy person, I like talking to people and having fun.

my current obsession: https://emp.ucsd.edu/swf/screenclean.swf
after dealing with stupid people at school today this made me feel like a million dollars.

I'm lucky to have understanding parents who have more than accepted my sexuality. I have a therapist, and he's swell (and gay).

I live in a city as superficial as it is sunny.
I love the rain.
I have enviable life-zest.

I've been meaning to start writing for a long time. A lot is going on with me right now (I've gotten leads in two plays), all of the changes are for the better at the moment. I'm excited.

C'est Moi.