no no no.
no to that boy.
i am not going to and i dont want to date that boy.
NO.
he is a creepy pedo that just wants to get into my pants.
thank god i finally came to that conclusion.

on another note, on another amazing note~
i feel completely and totally magical.
i just feel so amazing and light and full of warmth.
so,
to explain.
i hung out with this boy today.
his name is M,
and
i went to his house and we watched a movie,
mostly cuddled,
and cuddled some more and forgot to eat or drink or stretch
because we talked and talked and
talked
and i never, ever wanted to get up from his bed.

i am a little bit confused if it meant something.
when there would be a comfortable silence,
and he would snuggle closer,
nest his nose into my neck
and sigh into my throat.

i wonder if he could feel my heart beating like a drum.
it was going crazy.

i looked around, stared
at his baby blue ceiling,
and resisted the urge to lean over,
just an inch,
and kiss him.

he has a girlfriend,
but he was telling me how he is having a bit of
trouble
with her right now.
shes too clingy.
etc, etc.

i think. . .
what?

oh.
i dont know.

does that mean something? anything?