Confusion

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I'm confused. The worst part is, I have no idea why. I mean, things are going pretty well for me lately, I haven't gotten in any fights with my friends, I've been getting all my homework done, and I might get to go see Girlyman TWICE IN THREE DAYS soon! But I'm still feeling really really confused about myself.
I'm bisexual, but I've discovered two things about myself that don't really make sense with each other, one is that I am attracted to guys WAY more often than girls, and the other is that the idea of straight sex absolutely repulses me, a little odd huh? Another thing is that I've realized that I really really really like my best male friend, but have a really good friendship and we've been friends for like, 10 years, and I don't think he likes me back and... ok this may in fact be the source of my confusion, but I think there's more to it than just that.
Anyway onto other things. I saw Juno. Then I bought the soundtrack. Then I saw it again. Now, I'm going to see Kimya Dawson perform songs from the soundtrack soon! I also finally bought Once on DVD, which is the only other movie I've ever seen in the theater more than once... heh. Anyway, for anyone who hasn't seen it, it is about a straight couple, but it's not just a cheesy love story and the music is really, truly amazing, I have been listening to the soundtrack at least once a day for the last six months, no joke. Plus all of the music was written and performed by the actors who are actually actors, but musicians who happen to able to act somewhat decently. So, it's amazing, please see it.
I have to go do my homework (bleh) but when I can actually bring myself to write coherently instead of in long nonsensical tangents, I will post about what has ACTUALLY been going on in my life.

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whateversexual_llama's picture

DUDE, I'm so jealous of the

DUDE, I'm so jealous of the girlyman thing! I love them. I went to a concert in November, and got to TOUCH Ty, she asked my name and I managed to make some nonsense sylablles. I'm seeing them again during Spring Break. Tell us all about the concert!

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