Today is Monday,
the day I hate.
It means another 5 days
until the weekend,
too long for me to anticipate.

Brother told me, once on friday,
once on saturday
the he'd be gone
come sunday.
Said he had to go away
but only for 3 days.

Corny'd watch over me,
he swore.
So I was up at 2 yesterday morning,
pacing around and around and around my room.
I know eh kissed me goodbye,
it's what woke me up, the smell of his cologne.
NOw I feel so alone.

Always there to hold me
when my mind played the tricks.
Always able to read behind these fake
happy eyes of mine.

He spoke in words I could understand.
Not going slow, like the tesr of them do,
but in the fast tounge
the words flowing out like mine do.

I have three more days
until he comes back.
three more days to get a little bit better.
So it suprises him.

"Jaize."
Corny had mumbled when he came inside around 10.
"You're up all night.
go back to bed."
Can he see my eyes sunken in?
Did Myke tell him that I wont eat unless remingded? Maybe if he didn't,
I can finally get away with not eating
the disgusting food
that is in this

house.

"Jaize."
I look back up at corny,
neevr relizing that I had let my vision wander to the fridge, slightly open.
And empty.
I know then,
the garbage bag is probably bursting.
"What happened with the food?" He asked softly.
I look him in the eyes, make sure he can see my lips.
Signing vaugley that I might've thrown it all way.

But I don't remember.
He walks towards me, I step back.
Not out of fear,
but to give me somethign to do with my feet.
Myke would be doing something right now about the food.

Why is corny shaking hsi head.
He hugged me,
for the first time in months.
"Let's go get Maccy D's." HE closed the fridge, and told me to put on my boots.

I slip them on, while he looks for my coat,
finally giving up.

Maccy d.
I found out.
Was Mc Donalds.
Not that I ate the food.
I sat and watched Corny eat his burger.

And on Sunday afternoon
We drove.

Far.

LIke as if we had nothing better to do.
We drove miles,
and never left the city.

Until we reached a gas station,, wasting a full tank of gas on
driving around the city.

Corny bought a candy bar,
I bought a pack of cigarettes.

Somethign to do is smoke.
for 3 days, I know
that 5 other packs wil;l be bought with my hands, and my money until Mykle comes home.