Wow, so I should definitely be doing homework and studying right about this time. Speaking of subjects this term... I love German. Second year of it, and I'm still crazy about it. I even get to go on this trip to Bavaria during my third year, though I'm not too crazy about that. It sucks going on trips with my school 'cause, y'know, it's catholic and all, so the host family is obviously going to be all Bavarian 'we didn't succumb to Lutheranism' Catholic. Hm, that's kind of mean. I shouldn't be so bleak. You know what's stupid? This guy is really persistent in going out with me, and he really is kind of cool; but I just don't want to hook up with him. Like, physically he kind of repulses me. I feel like an ass hole for this too. I feel like an ass hole too often. Man, I should really turn it around. Maybe it's 'cause I have some superiority complex. And it's not like I want to have it, I don't. I want people to like me to put it bluntly, and sometimes I feel like they'll like me better if I make them feel like I'm better than them. Well, this can't be totally true. I mean the whole of me actually being a dick to be more liked. I'm not totally a dick, and hell, I go to a catholic school. Of course people don't like the gay kid looking for attention. I say this specifically because I often really do look for attention through art and stuff. I draw, paint and sculpt like crazy. My shit's been in the art and literary magazine every year since I first arrived, and truly, I'm not trying to show off or anything. I just cringe when I see seniors painting these terrible pieces of art. Well, they're not terrible, not at all terrible; they just lack the kind of emotional beauty. The fact that you were feeling something when you were drawing the painting. Anyways I digress, this term is going pretty damn well for me so far. I've quite a lucky schedule. Best, most lax teachers in the school, so I'm going strong with all A's. Haven't missed an assignment this term either, but damn, I'm so ready for this Christmas break. I finally get my fucking braces off. You know I actually sort of enjoy the fact that I had bracers so that I could have this moment of getting them off. I'm so fucking pumped about it. One could compare this moment to caressing the person they've loved all their life... Well, that's an exaggeration, but I really am enjoying this. About the title. Stiletto (Pumps) is a fun song, haha. My friend and I are going shopping soon for designer glasses and these platforms with fake goldfish in them. Also, she spits some lines about 'Atl' which woudl happen to be where I'm from.

Gotta' love that the city you're from is like the rap capitol. Well, good rap if it exists...