So, 8th grader of my last journal entry and several before that (who I've been hesitant to give a name to on here just because I'm always paranoid of people from RL coming and reading my life here... so she'll just be '8th grader'). We were IMing, and discussing how awkward it was to share smut. Don't ask. But, she said this: "and consider, what if say, the person reading the smut is someone you may at some point have feelings for (let it go)...that makes it even more awkward." So I'm too tired and out of it to really persue this thing, but I said she'd eventually have to explain the parenthetical statement at a later date. And her response was "eeeeeventually. but i think you get it on some level." And maybe it's because last night I got five hours of sleep on a hard floor with only winter coats for bedding, but I'm really, really confused. She said she wasn't flirting with me. I'm so confused. In a way, her not being interested made things easier, because I could tell myself "get over it" and we could just be friends. I don't know. Advice is greatly appreciated.

I've gotta go out to Jersey tomorrow. Bugger.

//EDIT//: Mother fucker. Me and my wishful thinking. It's not me, it's our other friend. Which is a complicated situation in itself--it's a really awkward position for her to like him, and just... high school is complicated. It's so strange. And I'm going to bed.