I keep forgetting that today is the last day of 2007. I... am not putting any undue expectations on the coming year and in this way I won't be disappointed when good things don't happen and pleasantly surprised when they do.

Had first ppropper contact with someone who's not a family member since the 23'rd this morning. She lives down town so we met at some ridiculous hour for coffee downtown because... well. I can get there easier than she can get out into the bubble. Thus. I am very, very caffeinated.

I've been thinking far too much lately. Not at the forefront of my thoughts but easiest to express in words is the link between gender and the lgbt community. ...don't reread that sentence, I *know*. My point is, there's this big fuzzy community, and some people get involved with it because they don't feel comfortable in their assigned gender. Fantastic, good for them, for serious every trans person I've met ever is super cool. But then you get the lgb part of the equation. So they get support, rant, feel a sense of belonging, bla bla bla. And then they start thinking about gender, because it's an issue that's discussed. And they're like.... hey, I don't think I like the thought of being a housewife, therefore I must not really be female, or such. And then we get the variety of labels covered under genderqueer. I'm not trying to discredit said labels -- I generally identify as androgynous, I've got no room to talk. I'm just saying, if these people had been born straight, therefore being less likely to be involved with the lgbt community, would they still be identifying themselves with breaking the gender bariers? If they weren't ever exposed to the ideas behind gender theory, would they eventually seek it out by themselves, or would they simpley go on in their assigned gender and maybe simpley say "yeah, I can be a bit tom-boyish." or "Yeah, I'm not super-manly."? I guess what I'm getting at is so far as people who are more about the fluidity of gender, but didn't seek out the lgbt community based on that fact, do you think you would have eventually worked it out on your own if you were straight, or did the fact that you're lgb and exposed to the idea of genderqueer make you step back and take a look at yourself and be like "hey, I don't really fit the gender-norm for what I am physically?".

......why yes, that was the most confusing thing I've written today. Don't mind me, just rambling. And if I've got to put the natural disclaimer, not trying to insult anyone, not discrediting anyone, respect others; everyone's a special and unique snowflake... well, there you have it.