In an recent exchange of emails with a slightly older college senior friend of mine, I had discussed my never ending quest for employment and how I am constantly ignored and turned away. I applied for seasonal all over the place and just no one ever called back. I don't understand when my peers are having no trouble obtaining employment and I'm the one here struggling. I don't know what to think anymore, I feel as if there is something wrong with me. Is there something wrong with me? I have been searching for a job for nearly a year and for a teenage part-time job many people are saying it is way too long. I just don't know what to do anymore, I feel as if I am a failure, I have caused things to fail in my life because of this. I have lost people in my life because I never had any money to spend time with them. I just feel like a total failure because I can't get a job. I have become depressed about it, I have started digging into my scalp with my finger nails again. I am just a pathetic jobless piece of shit.