Well I didn't think I would...I mean I am making new friends and all but I still get kind of lonely and my parents' constantly asking me if I am gay, is starting to become the skit that makes up many a LGBT comedian act. So I can't stay in my house and my friends all have jobs or college apps so they can't visit me. So I find it kind of lonely. Plus I don't have hallucinations to keep me company and since leaving the wheelchair, people don't seem to talk to me as much. Bleh, it is only a few days till Thanksgiving and maybe i can hang with my friends or at least my cousins. I find it amusing that my parents are freaking out, because the docs thought it was okay to say I attempted suicide in July not only because of the hallucinations but also because of the way that my parents treat LGBT people. So well, I know I can't tell my parents because they will flip out further more. But my cousin called to warn me that my parents are interveiwing people I know to see if some one will finally break and tell them I am gay. So I have to call all my friends to keep their mouths shut. It is funny. My friends and I are getting a kick out of it. Some of the kids in the rainbow floor think I should just telll them, which I guess is the right thing to do. But after they met my parents they said just wait till I am out of college. LOL

And I just found out my friends all wrote about me in their UC app, because they had to write about someone they admired. I find it sweet, but I don't think I should be looked up to. I mean when I had strength I use to get in fights all the time and I use to get them to ditch class with me all the time. But they tell me I only fought people who deserved it and I did it to protect some one and the teachers knew we were ditching, but they knew I was in the hospital most of the time and my parents wouldn't let my friends see me, so they let us ditch because they knew we would all catch up. But still I find it amusing, my high school called me to say that they want me to talk on career day to the underclass men about how even though it looks really tough to get into a good college it is still possible to do it.