i remember watching you through the window
you opened the door and that familiar breeze came in,
air chilled from the winter outside that our bodies and these sheets protected us from so well.
slouched against the handrail, cigarette in hand
you'd inhale, exhale
and i'd drift back into dreams of you.
i was never a morning person, until i met you
opening my eyes to fall so deeply into yours was the greatest awakening
no sunrise could ever be as beautiful, so i never even bothered.
for three hundred and twenty six days
i never saw the first rays of light shine over the mountains and across the water
because my eyes were fixed on you
when i woke up i was in your arms, right where you'd left me.
those mornings were the best of my life.
to me, the future was you, and us.
same love, same bed, same cigarettes in the morning
but one morning
the pack had changed from red to blue
and i knew that i was losing you.
Wrote that the other night, it's not really about anything from first hand experience... I dunno. I'm kind of attached to it now because somehow I feel connected to it but I'm not sure how :S
On another note, I'm coming out to my dad when he wakes up, which should be in next hour or two.
And this afternoon I'll be coming out my sister who's down for the weekend, and hopefully my whole family by the end of the weekend.
I'm scared, nervous, anxious and excited.
If it goes terrible thats okay, I'll just cry my eyes out when I see C today, if it goes well, then that just makes life even better right now :)
Yarrrrr. I can't freakin' wait till holidays start.
I'm getting my hair done next month for 1) my birthday 2) my formal 3) start of summer break.
I'm getting it cut like Shane's hair (L word) from around the time Carmen sprays her with a fire extinguisher :)
Hopefully it'll be good *crosses fingers
Can't waitttttttt. Ohmygod. Hahah.
Get to go out again and have fun and not come home for one or two days at a time :D :D