I'm sooooooooooooooo hurting right now. I decided that the best way to get over breaking up with Jesse was to go to the gym and hit the weights hardcore.I set myself up with a personal trainer to keep me motivated. I wouldn't be subjecting myself to this physical pain if Jesse hadn't put me through such tremendous emotional pain. And yes the pain she put me through was tremendous...my old 10th grade english teacher would be proud.

So for two days now I have spent all my time working out at the gym. Huffing and puffing for hours nonstop. I have to keep busy or I will begin to regret my decision. The first time me and Jesse broke up I lost all control of my emotions. I was in therapy five days a week,dropped piano lessons,and withdrew from my friends. But thats not gonna happen this time. Now with all this working out, I need to setup a weekly massage appointment.

On a somewhat happier note, I have gone back to working with youth,but now its full time. And I have sworn off girls! Girls are evil,maybe I should try guys, I never really gave them a chance to begin with. I can't believe all this is over a girl,a stupid girl!