Four days left
I have to wait until Monday. I have to wait to see her face. Hear her laugh. Tell her the truth. I've pretty much slept all day. Time goes by faster when you're totally knocked out. I know her number. I could call her, but i want to tell her in real life. When we have some privace, ya know?
I really really love Chloe. But I really really love Ashley. It's just so confusing. I have no one to talk to about this. No one to help me make this decision. None of my friends ever try to help me with any of my relationship problems. I don't know who to go to. Charlie won't help. Gina won't help. Jodee doesn't even know. God damn. I have no idea who to go to. No one even tries to help. This blog doesn't even help and that was the whole point in me getting on oasis in the first place. This is my last journal entry. I give up no one can help.
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I'm glad you slept all day!
I'm glad you slept all day! Where are you going to talk to her in private? Hmm, your "friends" sound shoddy if they won't listen/help with your relationship issues - you could always be friends with Chloe+Ashley and crush on another girl and bam, you talk to both of them about it and they respond!
Aww, don't let this be your last journal entry! THAT sounds like a cop-out! I bet your mother said 'I give up no one can help' during labour. Mmm hmm! You'll come running back, just to contradict me or something.
Make a Pros and Cons list to each of these fantastic ladies. And/or flip a coin to decide between the two. Unfortunately, *I* have not had a huge inner struggle over two boys before, let alone two girls, so...
Pause that - I have struggled over two girls before! Popular vs. less popular but more caring. I went with popular girls 2/3 times. The caring ones grew out of their caringness pretty fast and weren't worth it. If only I were kidding! Nah, one or two survived with some emotional goodness.
Well, if both girls feel similarly about you as you do for either of them, call them both up and ask them lots of random or very serious questions and make a determination! The longer you're stuck like this, the worse the emotional buildup will be...
I believe in you, good luck! P.S. Chloe sounds like more of a unique AND lesbian name to me, so she has my vote. Except I watched Smallville for a while and I seriously dislike what they wrote Chloe to be by now. But then the whole show has basically collapsed. Don't let yourself collapse!
Sweet dreams :o
You're Amazing.