I have to wait until Monday. I have to wait to see her face. Hear her laugh. Tell her the truth. I've pretty much slept all day. Time goes by faster when you're totally knocked out. I know her number. I could call her, but i want to tell her in real life. When we have some privace, ya know?
I really really love Chloe. But I really really love Ashley. It's just so confusing. I have no one to talk to about this. No one to help me make this decision. None of my friends ever try to help me with any of my relationship problems. I don't know who to go to. Charlie won't help. Gina won't help. Jodee doesn't even know. God damn. I have no idea who to go to. No one even tries to help. This blog doesn't even help and that was the whole point in me getting on oasis in the first place. This is my last journal entry. I give up no one can help.