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I serioussslly need to take a good look at myself + my life :|
I'm always whinging and whining about how I don't know enough available and attractive gay girls, and how I let opportunities slip through my fingers, and it's all doing my head in right now >_<
Met this realllyyy incredibly hot girl who, it turns out, lives here in my town and sometimes about an hour north up in Sydney.
She added me on myspace the other night (Don't laugh :P) and I had a read through her profile and omggggg! We have soo freaking much in common.
Her favourite things are a cigarette and coffee in the morning.
She thinks Katherine Moennig is freakinggg hot. She loves the L word and Loving Annabelle, her profile song is my favourite song :| :|
And the downside to all this you ask?
1. I'm intimidated by her. She's two years older than me (but I don't really care about that) and she's just so...edgey. She likes bodymod and tattoo's and stuff. I'm easily intimidated, once again. Lol.
2. She's best friends with a girl we'll name D. D is also a dyke and last night I found out that she has a massive crush on me. I'm just not really attracted to her, and I know it's vain and bitchy and shallow but my friends all used to joke about her (she's genderqueer, which I think is cool but yeah..) So it'd just be massively awkward for all my close friends to be like WTF?!
Andd I'm going into town today with my ex, to buy a teddy and concert ticket for her girlfriend (they're really cute together, I'm almost jealous, haha) and D is going to be there. So D, my ex and all their friends (they're all really close) are going to treat it as a date or something.
I can always bring up the "I've got a girlfriend" card, but I alwaysss flirt with people. I can't help it. And I don't want D to like me any more than she already doessss because I can't handle any unrequited love or more drama's.
But I strangely do have a crush on her friend (the edgey bodymod shane loving one)
And I think she's going to be there today too.
Oh yeah. And she drinks beer.
I personally hate beer, but girls drinking beer always seem to catch my eye. A girl with a cigarette and a beer will make me do a 180, lol.
Well I'm off to get ready I suppose.
Hope you're all fine 'n dandy :) :)
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