Okay. I really need to stop putting this off.
It's not like it requires anything special.
I just need to say two words.
I was meant to do it last saturday night.
But I was too tired and drugged.
And Sunday I was working.
I'm thinking of telling my dad in the next hour or so.
But at the same time, I can't call C for moral support because she's out clubbing right now. And she's pretty much the only person I'd call right now.
Tomorrow night is a no no, because I'm going to Canberra for an excursion from 7am-7pm on friday (minimum 6 hours of bus-riding in one day. Hell on wheels >_<)
So I'm thinking saturday morning.
Because I'm "starting work" at 9:30am, which of course is a lie, I start at 12, I just want to see C during the day :)
So I think I'll sit down with him. Tell him on saturday morning, so if it all goes haywire and terrible I can run to C and cry my eyes out or just sit in silence and hug. Her hugs make me feel so safe. I don't think I know anyone that can make me feel as comfortable and at home in their arms as her, and I've known her for just 2 weeks and one day.
But yeah. Thats the plan.
My dad's pretty open and accepting. I'm not going to try and sugar-coat it because I know in the end the only two words that will sink in will be "I'm gay".
At least I've got the next few days to mentally prepare myself.
And I'm going to tell my friends to call/msg me on saturday morning.
To make SURE I do it. I really need to stop putting this off.
Eeek. Scared. Anxious. Yet it's so exhilarating.