So.....I still have a crush on a boy. And, well, I thought I was over him, but things happen that make my crush something hard to leave behind.
We were playing video games in my room. I beat him, which is a rare occasion. He retaliated by tickling me, which proceeded to us wrestling around on the floor. He layed himself on top of me and I said that I quit. He got off and we continued our day.
I like to study in his room because I find distractions in my own. So, I was studying on his roommate's bed (it's lofted up). He's down at his desk (IMing his gf btw) and he comes up and sees what I'm doing. He then grabs my foot, plays with it a little, and takes my sock. I go down after him and get my sock. Then, he takes the puppy stuffed animal I got him for his birthday and starts abusing it (he knows it bothers me). We fight over the dog, and I take her and hold her against me. He wrestles me to the ground and holds me there. We're stuck, tangled, for awhile. We struggle more and he ends up on top of me again. He's just sitting there with is legs spread over me. His crotch was practically over mine. When I struggled more, he layed down on me again. Eventually he got the dog back and got off of me. Btw, he was not raping me. It was all playful.
This happened about two more times. I'm not really sure how to take this. He knows I'm gay. I know he has a gf. But the other night we were talking and I told him how I get random crushes on guys. And he never talks about his gf unless I bring her up. I really don't know how to take this.