i get scared too.
usually i have some idea of what is at the root of my fear... but sometimes it's hard to pinpoint.
ur gonna be O.K.
asking for help is one of the scariest things ever.
but once u make it past that hurdle, it gets easier to talk about it.
please try to get help from someone who knows what they're doing, u really have nothing to lose.
take care & good luck, hun! :o)