The bruise is still there. It's like a rainbow cuz it's red at the top, purple at the bottom, and has all the colors in between. It hurts like hell and yesterday Jesse Belle hit me on my shoulder cuz she forgot and it hurt really really bad....

I've been sick for weeks. My mom thinks its because of my birth control so I'm just going to stop taking it. I felt so icky today I just stayed home, my doctors appointment is tomorrow anyway. I feel like shit. I'd rather have ground shaking period cramps for three days than be sick for the rest of my life. I had a fever this morning. It was like 99 degrees I think. The hell if I can remember. In a couple minutes I'm prolly gonna go in my room and wrap 3 blankets around me, get my Mexican pop, and watch Pokemon Forever. Even though it always makes me cry.

I'm not sure how to say it this but....I think I'm bi. Or lesbian. Okay I know I'm one of the two. I think I'm somewhere in between. I have no idea. I could of like one of my friends that I've known for a couple years. I don't really know why I like him. You'd think that after all the things black people have done to me that I wouldn't even be friends with him. No, I'm not racist. Just trust me I have a very good reason not to like them. I don't have any idea whatsoever, why the hell I like him. I think it may have something to do with the fact that I just like certain black guys. I can't even picture myself being with a white boy. The thing is the black guys at my school are a lot nicer than the white boys. But anyway it's not like I would date him or anything but I just kinda sorta like him. I'm so confused....I have to shut up about this, I'm only getting more and more confused.

I know why I get the mexican pop though. It's kind of in the shape of a Bacardi bottle, and I used to be like kind of an alcholic so yeah. The Jamaica shit is especially strong so it kind of helps. I just don't get hangovers which I'm happy about. I miss the taste of Bacardi Silver though. Imma go do that thing with the blankets and the movie now...buh bye......