So after a long week of procrastination and emotional complexes, I finally did it. I broke up with her. I'm still in a bit of a state of shock. This is my first relationship, ever. My first kisses, the second person to tell me that I'm beautiful. ...yes, ok, the first was the crush. That's not the point here. I sent her an email, basically explaining that we never really get a chance to talk with our busy schedules and barely ever see each other and I just wasn't developing any feelings beyond friendship and it's *all* my fault, and she's an amazing person, etc. I hope she's not too upset... I felt so horrible doing it, but I think I would have felt equally horrible not doing it. I don't know. And on another depressing note, I'm pretty sure the crush will never like me like that. But that thought only exists when I'm not talking to hir. Sie always messages me on MSN when I first sign in, and uses the little kiss emoticons and winks and... *mutters*. Hopefully seeing hir next weekend.

Also, random question of the day.
So there's this event that I'm participating in next weekend, and a bunch of my friends are coming. Some from school, some from youth group. One of the girls coming is trans, and she passes really well. However, my other friends from school are wicked preceptive, and her voice is still a tiny bit maleish sounding. Should I mention it to my friends, or is that rude or unnecissary? I don't know how they'll react, I don't know if they'd be uncomfortable, though I know they wouldn't be rude. And is it even any of my business? I mean, gender is a pretty personal thing, so... would it be really inappropriate to mention it? But I'm just wondering, how would you feel, being a straight person with no former contact with teh lgbt community, if you suddenly realized that the girl you were talking to wasn't quite biologically all female?

...I want butter chicken. Mmm