I'm suddenly remembering all the things I did when I was infatuated with her. I thought we had something so amazing. I started being obsessed with tacky love songs because she was. I started wishing she would say those things to me. Oh my god, it was pathetic. Sometimes love songs and their ilk can be really good and honest and sincere... And So It Goes is a reasonably good example. I'd never write a long song because I'd be afraid it's sound sappy and drama-queen-y. I think And So It Goes does a reasonably good job. But if someone who Billy Joel had fucked with listened to that song, they'd think he was a prick and a motherfucker for trying to get away with that. It's all relative. She was obsessed with that song, and so by extension I was too, and I kept wishing she'd open up to me and say "You can have this heart to break." I cannot believe she turned me into such a fucking sap. Like I said, I wouldn't write a love song, wouldn't express myself through a love song like that, for fear of sounding cliche, attention-seeking... everything she was. And she fucking sucked me into it. She had me hailing Goodbye My Lover as a deep meaningful song, for fuck's sake. I humiliate myself.