So, I dunno if some of you have been following my journals, but I have a straight crush that leaves me wondering if he likes me too. Um, we'll just call him "Troy".

So, me and Troy have been spending a lot of time together. Like, just hanging out though. Me, him, and two other guys. Mostly we just play GameCube all day. And, well, today they were wanting me to watch a movie with them: The Ring. And the movie is supposed to be horrifying, and I'm a really big scardey cat (main reason they wanted me to see it) I tried to leave but Troy grabbed me before I could leave. He was hanging/leaning onto my back, and I fell cuz he was too heavy. He layed on top of me (we were both facing the floor) and he stayed like that while I tried to get up and leave. He eventually got up, and I left the room. But, you know, I am always curious about scary movies, so I went back telling them that I wasn't sure if I wanted to watch the movie (they had just started it). He grabbed me and sat me down in his lap. And he just didn't have me sit. He had pulled me back that I was leaning back onto him. His face was next to mine. His arms were around me. We sat there for awhile. And the other guys were watching the movie too and one of them kept glancing at us. Anyway, I got tired of sitting and I asked Troy if we could go to the bed. So, we were sitting on the bed for the rest of the movie. And, well, at times he would put his arm around me during the scary parts or when I pretended to be scared. Sometimes, he's just lay his hand on me. One time, he stroked my back for awhile. And, well, I'm not really sure what to think. Because one guy came in during the movie and Troy backed off when he saw the guy was coming. But then once the guy left he put his arm back around me. And he didn't have his arm around me the whole time, but a good few times. And, well, did he do all this because he's a good friend and I was scared? Is he just being flirty? I'm not really sure what to think and it's driving insane.

Then, later tonight we were all talking about a bunch of random things. And, well, we stumbled onto sexuality. I was rating the guys according to what they'd be on the Scale, one being a 1 and Troy being 0. We all got tired of talking and we parted. While Troy was walking to his room he turned around and asked me what my rating on the Kinsey Scale was. I told him 4.5. He repeated it, and turned and walked away. Strange. I hope it doesn't mean that he's gonna rethink everything that's happened between us. I don't want him to stop talking to me or being such a good friend because he'll be freaked out by it. Because if I was a straight girl, the things between us would be really weird. But then he does has his gf back home, which means he could just be a really close friend of mine and thought I wouldn't be interpreting things incorrectly.

Urgh. Crushes.