If you're not sexually attracted to girls then no, you're not gay.

But I don't think whether or not you're attracted to picture in a magazines etc is actually that good an indicator either (especially for girls who are allegedly less visual etc).
I'm normally only attracted to someone, as opposed to finding the person attractive in a abstract sense, because I've seen them in real life or have interacted with them in some way. It's like I'd rather have an actual boring jacket potato for dinner, than a picture of a 5 course meal.

Now here's my most hated phrase ever from when I was 'confused'; it might just be a phase.

Are the girls you have crushes on the people you want to sleep with or be like? Or both even, these things are complicated. Not all attraction is sexual. You can be drawn to a person for all sorts of reasons.

And do you respond sexually to men?

Or do you even respond sexually to anyone yet? Because not to belittle you, but you are 13 and contrary to media depictions/ what your peers say not all 13 year olds are even thinking about that yet. This one might sound insulting maybe, but it shoudn't be; people develop at different speeds. Do you really want to be all that familiar with anyone's anatomy at the moment?

Also bear in mind not just the people you're attracted to, but the people you want to attract. Do you find youself actually flirting with girls?

The fact is you can question until you're blue in the face. It won't help. Your sexuality just falls into place- partly through sexual experience, partly just because the dust settles on the hormones and you realise what they were trying to tell you. And until them you can question and question, but you won't be able to work it out. God knows it's never helped me.

It might sound like I'm almost trying to talk you out of being gay. Obviously I'm not, because if you are then you just are.

Finally, while I disagree that sexuality (for most people) is fluid, I don't think it's rigid either. It's more like a jelly- a bit wilbbly, sometimes quite wobbly but more or less keeps it's shape. But just like a jelly your sexuality needs time to set in the big fridge of adolescence.

There, the best advice I've ever given anyone.

Good luck sweetie and welcome to Oasis.

Geez, I don't know how I can follow up on Auntie Lol's post there. But the one thing I can do better than her is read DoBs, and I know that (assuming you gave a real birth date) you turn fifteen tomorrow (happy birthday, BTW). Still, it is true that everyone matures sexually at different rates. Maybe you're not sexually attracted to girls, but if you're not sexually attracted to guys either, it's not nearly as significant. I've been there too, and I'm sure most everyone on this site has. I look at guys, I look at girls, and I wonder, "is this attractive? Am I attracted to this person?" It's a really daunting question, and it can be really scary, and you can't just look at a hot girl, not find her attractive, and BAM say that you're 100% straight. Like Loltaire said, pictures aren't the same as people. And yes, there are a LOT of other factors in crushes than physical attraction.

Keep in mind that there are a lot of different levels of "like." You can want to be with someone in a physical way, or an emotional way, or just want romance... I'd say, think about who you see yourself being with, and who you want to be with. Maybe you wouldn't mind being physical with guys but can't see yourself connecting emotionally with them the way you can with girls... whatever. It's a really huge question, and even though it's a bitch to admit, there's no easy answer. Just trust your gut, and go with what you feel. Sometimes it's hard to admit what you feel for someone, especially if it's someone society says you shouldn't like. But you do seem like a very self-aware person, so you should be able to figure these things out.

All you can do is give it time. Things will clear up eventually. I know it sucks to hear, but it's all anyone can really say. Good luck with it, though!

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Well, I wouldn't rush to find another label. You keep saying you've been straight up until now, as though that were factual. Seems like it needs a qualifier. I thought I was straight, I believed I was straight, etc.

So, you seem to really hook onto the whole label thing, I mean, how many "heterosexual" things have you done at 14? Unless you've been dating and/or sleeping with boys, then it is more a perceived heterosexuality. You thought that was the path in front of you, which is the direction in which society points you, but seems strange to doubt what has been possibly more theoretical than actual.

It's like deciding as a high school senior to switch your major in college. Nothing changed in your present life, really, only switched up your future direction.

You say you're not sexually attracted to girls, but are you sexually attracted to boys?

As for not being into hot bodies and random girls, but more into people you know better, that just sounds like you're, well, female. Guys are usually the more visually-based ones, whereas women like to bond on a deeper level and such.

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