well i decided to updat just cuz, nothing really interesting happened lately.

lets see, yesterday i was supposed to go to this club, the arena, its a gay club, with my friends, but i flaked. one of my friends is very sad, cuz he's never been, and it was going to be his first time. so i kinda feel bad. but i think it wouldve been fun, because all the other times i went, i went with either my brother david, my sister angie, or both. so it wouldve been fun to go with just my friends, but maybe when i get my car we could go.

well upward bound is officially over for me, cuz i went to the closing ceremony and thats it for me. they have these senior seminars during saturday, but im pretty sure im not going to go to them, so wutever. im gonna really miss my LA friends cuz im never gonna see them again. especially yancy and jennifer, but they have myspaces, so ill talk to them that way i guess

well, i was thinkin today, and i decided i really want a girlfriend. i think it would be better for me. cuz every relationship ive had with a guy just didnt do it for me, and ive always felt there was sumthin missin. but the problem is that i dont know any girls that i could possibly date, and even if i knew any girls i would be too shy to talk to them like that. see with guys im all kinds of bold, but with girls, im like super shy. so i got to figure out how to convice someone to ask me out, because im too shy to ask them out. but before i can even convince someone, i have to find someone i want, who is into girls, and most importantly into me. it seems kinda hard, but im determined to try