Alrighty then. This is my oppinion on the whole knowing your sexuality when you're in 5th grade/13. Though the two are vastly different. In todays' world, there is no age limit on self discovery. So yes, I think you can know at 13 that you're gay. I'm not saying that things don't change, but thats completely different. I won't go as far to say that you will know 100%. Because things change. So my only advice is to not lable yourself. Besides, lables are for the other people who don't know how to descibe you. So they lable you and put you in a neat little box so that they can handle your differences. I came out to my parents when I was 13. Because for the first time, it felt right dating somebody. And my somebody happened to be a girl. I gave myself some wiggle room and told them I was bi though. Just so that now, 4 years later, when I randomly bring home a boy, they don't get super confused. But I was in 5th grade when I was realizing that I was a bit different than the other girls. I didn't know the word for it then, but I knew that I would rather hang out with the boys and chase the girls with earth worms. My actions fit one gender role better than the other. So thats what I have to say about that. Now, moving on to my boring life.
Today was "orientation" at school for the juniors and seniors. You would think after 3 or 4 years of going to the same school, that there really wouldn't be much to know. And there isn't. They fucked my schedule up 6 different ways. I've got classes that I've already passed(Algebra 3/4), class I don't need (Spanish5/6) and classes I don't want. Since when does the mexican kid need Spanish on her schedule?!?! WTF? Roar. Anyways, it wouldn't be so bad if they didn't give us schedules in June, with the form to change it and it was fixed now. School starts on the 5th. They've had 3 months to fix my schedule. And it's the same as it was in June, when I submitted the forms to change it. But my school's staff has always been tragically inept. Oh well, if they don't change it, then I get my dad on the phone to yell at them. And they're afraid of him. So then my schedule will be fine. My high school is the freaking Murphy's Law. Anything that can go wrong will. I'm not angry anymore. Journaling=free therapy.
5 days!!!!!!!!!!
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Amy