Uck, Emily is confusing the crap out of me! I went to her house today and I gave her the Disney gift I bought her. We had our fun. We talked, laughed, it was a good time. We even went out to eat together. But she gave me a note and told me not to read it until I left. My heart was beating and I was happy at first, but now I just want to cry :( Here's some of what she wrote:

"I do think about you when I kiss Dakota (her boyfriend). To be honest, I think about you a lot. You are strong, confident, beautiful, and smart. How could I not think about you? Yeah, I know you're a bit shy sometimes, but it's cute. Yeah, it's cheesy. I can't really explain what's going through my head right now. I'm really confused about a lot of things. One thing I know for sure is that I don't want to lose your friendship. You mean a lot to me and I love you. What I don't know is if I just love you as a friend or if it's more than that. I'm sorry. I'm pretty sure I'm confusing you, but I don't have this all sorted out yet and we're running out of time. I'm going to miss you so much! Let's just enjoy the time we still have left. I can't wait to see you again."

Oh gosh, I'm going in circles with this girl. She acts like she likes me, then she acts like she doesn't. She even named one of my stuffed animals. I can't take it. But I can't take staying away from her either. I have a week to find out the truth, and leaving everything unsolved won't make me feel better.

I know, some of you will tell me to just forget her. I tried, but then she lured me in again. Ugh.

UPDATE: To add to the stress, my roommate just told me she's not even going to Truman State! I'm going there with no clue as to who my new roommate is and whether or not she'll try to throw holy water at me!