'Kay,

I am very well aware that there have been plenty of people to post things such as "Are there any Trans or Trans friendly people out there?" or "Does anyone know where I can find any Trans people?", but at the risk of sounding like a broken record, ARE THERE ANY FTM's OUT THERE??!

I've tried talking to...uh...about three people but I guess they don't come on anymore or don't come on often...that's not bad. I myself don't have a computer (I'm at school right now) so it is difficult for me to access the net.

The stupid sob story of my life is not really anything special. I was born female, and raised as such; but I always felt there was something wrong with this picture, yet could never pinpoint it. When I was in my sophmore year in High School (best years of your life. Heh "Best" is open to interpretation) I met a girl. Wow, big surprise, no? Long story short, we dated/went out/whatever, she dumped me, we're still friends two years later but eh. The thing is, during that time, I thought, "Okay, I like girls...am I lesbian?" It took me a year of toying with that label, turning it different ways, wondering why it still didn't fit, before I could find me. I was reading the book "Luna" by Julie Ann Peters. There's a part in the book when this guy says, "I'm not gay. I'm a girl." That's when it clicked. That's me. But not a guy->girl, Female-to-male.

Don't get me wrong, I read a lot and searched my soul to be sure this is really me. I didn't find something shiny and dive at it. :) I've been using the name Arthur for nearly a year now. Some days are harder than others, though...it's those days I really wish I had someone to talk to who kinda gets what I'm going through...Please.