I hate to vent about this in this manner, but I can't really bring myself to dump it on any of my friends, so it will go to the general population, or rather, those who care to read it. I just can't sit with this anymore, so if you're in the line of fire, I strongly suggest you move.
Can I quit now? I just want this all to stop. I want "Gwen" to stop messing with my mind (God, help me, I want to be with her, but all she sees when she looks at me is a girl! THAT'S NOT ME!!!), I want to be a guy NOW (Impatience trumps virtues, so ha.), I can't stop the STUPID dumbarse feeling that I'm gonna be alone for the rest of my life (God, someone just shoot me, cause according to a "friend" of mine, "No girl wants a guy with it stitched on."), I can't stop feeling alone! I have about ten people I could talk to, not to mention people who are basically non-biased, and I feel like the only bleeding sod on the planet. What the hell is wrong with me?! I haven't gotten adequate sleep for a week because of all this shite and I just want to leave all of this behind.
I want to transition. I want to be a guy now. I want to find someone who will love me for me, not what they see.
I don't know what to do anymore.