To cut to the quick, since my last entry, my crush has become a fair bit straighter and deprived me of our juicy eye connectivity, except for once in a while. At the end of last week, I didn't have much chance to talk to him, and when I would've, he was blithering on about CARS and 'straight boy' such to some guys in the class.

I kept trying to make eye contact with him today during our lessons and it only clicked a couple of times. My usual flamboyance didn't seem to phase him (I'm not OVERLY flamboyant, or even that, I just make everyone laugh every once in a while and he has such a lovable smile) until I laughed super loudly at the same time as he did at a bunch of blurted out wrong answers. I.e. the teacher says: so 2+2 = ? and a handful of people really think it's 2 and we both laughed and stared at each other for 10ish secs and then kept laughing.

However, something I have not divulged is that he is a bit sickly. NO not in looks and NO not in scent or anything. He sneezes more often than you'd expect though, and that's really something that got the looks going between he and I, since I'd always say 'Bless You!'. This morning he was really pale, then got back to normal after an hour or so, but my mind would like to think that explains his distance.

During lunch I was really bored so I sat down opposite him at this table and we glanced at each other and then away and he kept talking to the people there and I appeared to half-listen half-observe other tables while sitting. Then one of the straight guys said something funny (and they were talking about a dumb girl from their shared school) and he laughed pretty heftily and I had to slap on a smile, but he didn't even look at me even though my eyes were trained on him for a minute or more (no one else noticed but still!).

So hmm. Perhaps I was wrong and my crush is a straight boy? It doesn't seem to bother me as much now, I still want him but I don't crave him as I did a few weeks back. A little under a week of class to go though, so I'm debating finding SOME excuse (can you think of any?) to go to his house after school on the last day, or to just stalk him out of the exam and ask him to come over yonder and grab him by the shoulders and kiss him.

In other news, my driving is improving - my instructor is a bit annoying as heck though, he refuses to schedule two lessons in a row. So that means I have more than a dozen to go on seperate days and have to consider them all... when I could get 4 done in a vacant afternoon and not have my mom implore me to go drive her around for practice. Harry Potter 7 wasn't as good as I would've hoped, the middle of it seemed way too drawn out/pointless, happy ending... but I would've way preferred some twist or future dark potential.