So the boy who I feign for revealed his GF's name not hesitantly but not immediately when I asked. We were also talking and he kept the eye contact going just like days before and was sooo pepped about the subject we were talking about, I ALMOST asked: Are you getting laid? Is your girlfriend really a male and you're going on your first date? Are you lying??? Well, one of the above/previous. However, I didn't ask and things got left as they were, my 'mention someone who claims to know you' ploy didn't work, some OTHER person actually thought they knew who I claimed my boy knew, which was funny. What was semi-funny was that person then asking me about my relationship status.
WHOA is right! They definitely weren't seeming to come off as in: are you single and datable by *me*? But it was surprising and when they asked if I had had a previous relationship, I almost wanted to hit them because it seemed like a hint towards: 'are you gay (i.e. would not have had a previous relationship'. But after thinking on it later, it probably wasn't meant that way, I answered with an honest 'no' though, and crush overheard so maybe he can read into that haha.
So I was thinking about him this morning and wow my heart literally felt lighter thinking of him. I'm not sure if to call this my first 'love at first sight' or even 'first love' but it's surely more than I've ever ever felt about any boy or girl romantically. After a few hours, I hopped up my PC and did the obvious thing (well actually no, it came to me while checking wiki)... cyberstalk the crush a bit!
I learned some great tidbits about him, and some things that explain why he looks so fit. I also found two pics so his cuteness is sealed into my mind since he was cute even a year ago yay. Interestingly, I found no mention of any crush in relation to any parameters related to him that I searched. He told me his so-called girlfriend's name in front of a bunch of people and no one denounced it, but of course some part of me wills her to be fake, or it to be a recent, craggy relationship.
Anyways, they are going to see a movie and I need to go see that movie with some random person by Monday so I can talk about it with him on Monday. Which is half hilarious, half so wrong. I was imagining bringing him to the movies and almost showing him off to people *sigh*. I don't want to dive in too deep or anything, even though I feel too interested already, but the gazes we share are just too much, and for a complete stranger he's taken on to me so well that I just don't know.
But then some other part of me wonders if he's just a really, really nice straight guy, or a bi guy that is not interested in pursuing a male relationship now. A couple more weeks of summer school, so I'm hoping he breaks an ankle or gets acid in his eyes or something that = he can fall into my arms/I can carry him to the office. Not even kidding. C'mon, you'd do it too if you saw this boy. I promise! Hugs.