this city's made us crazy and we must get out

thoughtgoddess's picture

I'm going through one of those wonderfully emo 'I have no friends, the world is secretly out to destroy any self-confidence or self-worth I've built up ever' moods. Have been for the last five days. It's assuredly my own insecurities getting in my way, but it still leaves me feeling like shit.

I just found out that I've got to put my horse down due to a tumor in her naisal cavity. I've had this horse for 13 years. I've decided I shall skip my afternoon class tomorrow to go say goodbye.

All in all, it's been a rather shitty few days.

Things that are keeping me slightlier better
The girl with whom I danced at Gay Grad Saturday night and am now messaging back and forth with on Facebook.
I have DQ icecream today.
My aunt has a firepit in her backyard and we've been having bondfires out there.
Nine more days of school.
I'll be seeing one of my best friends whom I rarely see on Friday and she is not included in the 'everybody hates me' state of my mind.
My newly discovered Gundam Wing addiction. It is crack, I tell you.

Yeah, that's all.

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Toph's picture

Cool about the Facebook

Cool about the Facebook buddy :D

Don't worry, the world isn't out to destroy you. I'm on your side, and I'm part of the world!

Yum...DQ.

Anime altogether is crack!!! I LOVE IT!!!

~I love goodluck rubs ;P

thoughtgoddess's picture

I know! And she's queer,

I know! And she's queer, single and looking for friendship/dating/relationship, so even if nothing happens I'll have an awesome friend. haha, I'm such a dork.

Awwe, thanks. I shall now not say that the world is out to get me. XD I'm sure I'm just imagining things.

Mmmm, *loves DQ*.

And I actually really never watch anime. ...just Gundam Wing. ...often. and obsessively. And when I'm not watching it, I'm reading fic. ...I can stop any time I want....really...

Toph's picture

That's so exciting! Gay

That's so exciting! Gay friends are the best! Because not only are they you're friends, but you don't have to worry about them ditching you after you come out to them. And they understand you TONS better than just anyone else.

I practically grew up on DQ. Lol. Those kinky commercial with the ice cream and the waffle bowl are HILARIOUS!

Lol. You're funny. But you should watch Kannazuki no Miko or Strawberry Panic on YouTube. Very good lesbian anime (Shoujo).

~I love goodluck rubs ;P

thoughtgoddess's picture

I was actually gonna get one

I was actually gonna get one of those tonight, but I figured it looked like a lot of food. So I decided not to.

Yay, I like making people laugh. And I would watch them, but they're not dubbed anywhere I can find. *pulls out pre-written 'I'm blind, as in can't see, but I can still see light/dark, I use a program that translates the computer screen to speech, I occasionally use braille for math, but the computer for the rest of life, speech*. ....so, yeah. Probably one of the reasons I didn't get into anime.
...but....*seriously*. Treize/Zechs is damn hot.

Toph's picture

It's something good to

It's something good to eat...like with a girlfriend or a crush :P

Oh, that sucks about the vision thing. Um...I don't watch Gundum Wing, but I'll trust you on that. Lol. Ooh, Noir! It's dubbed, but its not outright lesbian. It's just one of those things you suspect is going on b/t the characters. It's really neat though. Mystery and action.

~I love goodluck rubs ;P

taste the rainbow's picture

Sorry to hear about your

Sorry to hear about your horse, 13 years is a long time.

I'd have to agree with toph on the whole anime bit. Anime rocks my socks =)

thoughtgoddess's picture

Thanks. It's still kind of

Thanks. It's still kind of sinking in, it was really sudden. Thirteen years is, indeed, a damned long time.

And as I said above, I'm *not* an anime fan! But...the Treize. And the Zechs. And the Treize/Zechs. and......*wanders off to find more fic*

Gerardo's picture

Chobits?

Speaking of anime, I just finished all 27 episodes of Chobits, and I'm utterly overjoyed that I found it on Youtube. You should check it out!

Annnnnyways... You should totally just skip school to see your horse and pay your respects. Poor thing... (You and the horse that is.) I've never had like a pet that I've known for a while die, so I don't quite know the feeling.

*Gasp* I could totally go for some DQ. I'm hot and sweaty from playing DDR for like 2 hours straight. ^_^;;

~Domo Arigato, Mr. Roboto!~