So in a previous entry I mentioned my hottie crush who happens to be a year ahead of me and in one of my classes. And he's actually doing 1% better than me in that class so he's SMART yay.

Anyway, today I had two exams and had planned on striking up a random convo and asking for his number on the premise of just in case, or if you want to do anything over the summer...

So one of his exams began when one of mine did, and I valiantly searched for him in the iterim between my first exam's end and the beginning of the 2nd one. No dice. Oh well, the second exam for me SUCKED. Then I went and looked for him and low and behold he was still writing his, most of the class had left, but it's a 2 and a half hour exam he was in.

So I somehow forgot about my lovely plan and called someone to pick me up. When I remembered my plan and even thought of asking crush for a RIDE home myself (alone time in car avec crush?!) I called the cell and sad life, they were 2 mins from the school. So we get home, and I have this urge to go back and get the whole 'destiny' feeling and literally feel like if I go do this and have his number I'll start a relationship over the summer.

So I basically lie and engineer my way back to school and tell the driver I'll get my own way back home (usually bus and they were there anyway so that would've been it if crush didn't drive).

Soooo I wait a while for crush to finish exam, sort of awkward in school since a mass of grade 7-8's dash out from wherever and are being loud, and the only other people in my grade are 4-5 stupid guys that were just walking around. When crush came out of the exam, he was talking to his teacher still and I didn't follow per say, I just waited with an eye down the hallway until the man left.

After he had, I sped up towards crush - 'this is it' I think to myself. I'd turned on my cell again before to make a quick phone number entrance and to encourage him to give me the number since I figured I'd whip it out upon asking for it and he'd have to oblige.

Damn he walks fast. He didn't walk TOO fast, I HAD my chance to call his name down the hall, but he was headed to the doors out by the busses and cars and whatnot so I figured I could stop him.

WRONG. I get by the doors and he's only a dozenish steps ahead but I couldn't call out to him since I hear lots of people outside, including the random 4-5 guys from my grade outside. So when I step out, my bus is ahead of me, crush is walking steadily away not even knowing what's in my mind, and I can't go chase after him or anything for fear of appearing gay, especially since I'd ask for his number and doing that out there with all those people watching would be bizarro.

So DAMN. I got on the bus and came home and here I am typing this. I even saw crush drive off (he can drive too mmm) from the bus. HOPEFULLY though, I can get enough nerve and see him ALONE again on exam pick-up day in a week or however many days and ask him then.

It would have been PERFECT too, we were alone in the hallway and I'm sure if I had asked for a ride home then, he'd have offered.

Maybe all things happen for a reason, maybe not. I don't think I would've had the guts or coordination to figure out something to do with him over the summer, but it still would be so good just to have his number in case I'm in a mood.

Any advice for exam pick-up day? I don't want to just hang around the school for 4-5 hours waiting for him, only to not be able to get him alone. In other news, my would-be gal pals did not offer me a trip over to their post-exam party thing and didn't say much of anything to me when they left even though I was pretty much just standing there and said good-bye the first time and when I came back - nothing.

My crush has amazing blue eyes and short dark brown hair that looks like it has highlights in it. It's spiked via gel and not long or short and I wonder if he's reading this hmm. I wish.