J'essaie retenir mon français....AND COLLEGE TIDINGS OF JOY!

12 June, 2007 - 11:46pm — nydolls1973

Don't be afraid...

First and foremost......can someone really look Jewish? What does that mean? Something weird happened yesterday. I had been thinking about that for a while, and then someone in my class all of a sudden asked "are you Jewish? because you look like it" and I was like woe. Because my dad was, but now I don't know what he thinks he is. If you can even change. I don't understand any of that technical stuff.
But then she asked other people & they agreed! wtf? How can you tell?
I always thought maybe I did a bit but I thought I was just seeing things!

J'essaie me souvenir le français, alors je vais écrire cela en français. Je sais qu'il ne va pas être très articulé, mais je ne veux pas l'oublier. Je n'ai jamais aimé l'école. Seulement cette fille que j'ai aimé bien, elle me manquais......ok, so I forgot the future tenses. So SUE ME.
I just said that I am going to write in french....etc. etc.....I never liked school.......I will only miss the girl that I liked that I got to see every day in one class.
En fait il y a plus d'un. J'ai aimé comme 5 filles.
(Actually there is more than one. I liked about 5 girls.)

When we visited a college in NYC, I was getting sick on the bus in Queens because it was so crowded and smelled bad and we were going through this hispanic neighborhood, and for some unfortunate reason, spanish things make me sick. The language, the food, all that. Why? Je ne sais pas.
Peut-être il était severe culture shock, being on that bus. Le bus.
And it was hot on the bus.
I can't handle temperatures over 75 degrees, really.

I am talking to this guy online, trying to start a band. He says he is 18 but he looks like a rapist. I'm scared. Oh well you takes your chances.

I still miss won't-talk-to-me-woman. This happens every year though. I wonder who I will be all into next year. I hope it's not her again because she is murdering my soul. I hope it's someone who is single, not straight, and likes me back. That might be difficult. I have never been more confused. Some days I am over her and some days I am all depressed about her. And wondering who it was that ruined our chance at reconciliation. Or conciliation. Did I do enough? Or did I do things all wrong? Either way, I wish I could see her this summer!! Even with her girlfriend! Even if we had no future other than friends!! I don't care!! I still just want to see her!!

Now to COLLEGE TIDINGS OF COMFORT AND JOY, COMFORT AND JOY.
If anyone wants to evaluate my essays, please feel free to ask. I want to get in to Eugene Lang College in NYC, that is my 1st choice. Then Hampshire College in Amherst, MA, Sarah Lawrence in Bronxville, NY, Lewis & Clark in Portland, and Evergreen State in Olympia, WA.
Ok, for Eugene Lang's SATs, the median Critical Reading score was 560-670. Mine is 680. Their Math was 500-620, and mine is 600. Their Writing was "projected" at 600-690, and mine is 660. I am taking it again though, because I have to compensate for my GPA. Their average is 3.2 and mine I think is 2.2. That's 9th and 10th grades' fault because this year I got a 3.3. or 3.5 or something.
That's where it gets uncool. Because everyone says colleges look at your grades more than your SAT scores, but my GPA doesn't reflect me. It reflects me being seriously depressed in 9th and 10th grade. I'm scared they won't sympathise. And what if the others don't either?? I am getting college anxiety. I've heard about it.
Any advice for me? Anyone wants to help with my essays?

Merci Beaucoup!
Au revoir! À bientôt!

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13 June, 2007 - 12:11am — Duncan

Bonne chance, la

Bonne chance, la française!!!

Courage is contagious... be strong, and soon you won't be standing alone.

13 June, 2007 - 6:43pm — nydolls1973

merci! j'essaie :p +++ still

merci! j'essaie :p
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still art lacks the energy of dance or Film, because Film is not Still,
It Will Not recoil, or stiffen for You, it enunciates Directly at You.
It will Impale for Film does not Flinch

13 June, 2007 - 3:51am — wilma wonka

ahhhhhhhh I don't speak

ahhhhhhhh I don't speak french, this is really frustrating. I think it's possible to look jewish. Come to my sleep away camp (it's an all jewish camp) and you'll get a feel for what it's like to look "jewish". The stereotype is short with thick hair. It's not always curly but it's really really thick. It's usualy dark brown almost black but some people have that same texture except it's red not brown. (can you tell that I think it's really hot so i spend a lot of time looking at it. ; P )

"gay: cheerful and lighthearted; merry." - The American Heritage Dictionary.

13 June, 2007 - 5:09am — nydolls1973

^_^

ahh thats like me. cool. my sister looks completely opposite of me though.
I guess my friend was right then.
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still art lacks the energy of dance or Film, because Film is not Still,
if you Fear It you Fear Your Own. this is truthful.
It Will Not recoil, or stiffen for You, it enunciates Directly at You.
It will Impale for Film does not Flinch

13 June, 2007 - 7:37pm — ACCgirl

college

I wouldn't stress out too much about the GPA - for one thing, there is absolutely nothing you can do about it...it's pretty much set in stone, so why worry about it? I've heard that lot of colleges use some sort of formula to accept or reject applicants - it incorporates ACT/SAT scores, GPA, and various other factors that they turn into numbers (like volunteer work, activities, and sports), so it is definitely possible to get in despite a relatively mediocre GPA. There is no reason to feel anxious about college; the entry process ends up being a lot smoother than you think, and generally time spent there it's approximately one billion times more enjoyable than time spent in high school.

13 June, 2007 - 11:54pm — nydolls1973

time spent anywhere would be better than hs

Yes I recently heard about this formula, too. I started getting really stressed out when I got 19 on a SAT/GPA chart where the average was 44. I think this was for UMass Amherst. That's right, a public school. This school was last on my list like a safety school. And I got 19 where the average is 44.
The problem is I don't have any volunteer work, regular work, activities, or sports!! :'( :'( I can't get a job. I'm still trying though by constantly calling places & getting rejected. I emailed a recording studio asking for volunteer work & they aren't going to write back I'm pretty sure. I hate sports. And the only activities I do are poetry & music, and they are definitely not a team effort.
And. I have been trying to get into the school to get an SAT fee waiver, but school is out and no one is ever around. wtf.
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still art lacks the energy of dance or Film, because Film is not Still,
It Will Not recoil, or stiffen for You, it enunciates Directly at You.
It will Impale for Film does not Flinch

13 June, 2007 - 9:15pm — Grace Hughen

People have asked me if I'm

People have asked me if I'm Jewish before, too. And I don't even fit the look wilma wonka described. Weird.

Me no speaky French. Sorry.

14 June, 2007 - 9:09am — hellonwheels

my advice...

don't go to evergreen...I have been there and the place is a shithole...everyone i know who went there transferred out w/in a year, and when i took the tour, i was less than impressed...i do know a few ppl that went there that liked it though.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

14 June, 2007 - 8:34pm — nydolls1973

BUT they also accept 95% of

BUT they also accept 95% of applicants.
And if I wasn't accepted there, I would go off to die.
I have 9 colleges on my list now; Eugene Lang, Sarah Lawrence, Hampshire, UMass Amherst (I don't know why that's on there, just because it's in the 5 college consortium I guess), Evergreen State, Lewis & Clark, SUNY Purchase, SUNY Buffalo, and University of Washington.
So it's pretty much whichever one accepts me I am going to.
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still art lacks the energy of dance or Film, because Film is not Still,
It Will Not recoil, or stiffen for You,
It will Impale for Film does not Flinch