The dream. The damn dream!

Do you remember Emily? She's the girl that wouldn't date me because I'm leaving for college...in August! So instead we'd make out and hold hands, but we just didn't say we were dating. Did I add she had a boyfriend? And then she told me she didn't like me as much as she thought she did. End of story.

Well, not quite. I had a dream about her. That we were hanging out like we used to. That we'd talk and have fun like normal people. That she didn't bring her boyfriend along and they weren't making out in front of me like they usually do. So in the dream we were talking but I had strong urges to hold her like I used to. And when I suddenly kissed her she got PISSED. She said that we couldn't even be friends anymore because she doesn't like me that way. That I don't know hot to interact with her in a non-intimate kinda way.

Good thing that was only a dream. But, I saw my fears in the dream. I want to see her eventually, but since the "break-up" she's been avoiding me. I just want to be her friend. She's a cool person. But with her having a boyfriend everything seems to be about him, even when she's with her closer friends. It sucks.