During the last couple of weeks, I've just let the hair on my legs and armpits grow. It's been really nice, actually. I didn't have to worry about shaving and making sure the hairs don't get too long and all that crap. I'm thinking about just not shaving at all anymore.
It's my body, after all, and it's my choice what to do with it. If anyone thinks I'm ugly for it, then that's their problem and not mine.
If I stay hairy like this, it's going to put people off, I know it. I honestly don't care if people see me in a bathing suit with hairy arms and legs, but I know everyone else does. My mom wants me to shave my legs. She was pretty honest about me with it, which I appreciate. She told me that my hairy legs bug her, and besides, it's more "socially acceptable" to shave.
I don't want to shave my legs. Hairy legs are perfectly natural for men and women, and it's a lot more convenient for me to just forget about them. But on the other hand, the way my mom and the rest of society acts, it seems like I really should care about what I look.
My mom's always been like this. She's the one who encouraged me to start wearing bras and shave my legs/armpits when I started going through puberty, and she made me give away all my leggings to Goodwill and bought me pants that weren't so tight, because my body was changing and she didn't want me wearing clothes that showed off my "assets." (I used to wear leggings all the time when I was little. They were comfortable, so they were perfect for me.) She still wants me to keep on doing those things. But I always wonder: why the crap is it so fucking important to keep up appearances, anyway? I wear baggy shirts half the time; what's the point of wearing a bra then? I wear pants most of the time, too, so why do I need to shave my legs? And I don't care about whether I wear leggings that show off my butt. I just want clothing that's comfortable for me.
But if I don't shave my legs and wear bras, I won't look presentable, and then people won't want to talk to me. I mean, honestly, how am I ever going to find a girlfriend if I don't shave my legs? What girl is ever going to think that my hairy legs are sexy?
Ugh. I think I'm going to take a bath now and shave my legs. I always did like how smooth they feel after I shave them.
WHY THE CRAP SHOULD I CARE ABOUT THIS STUFF?? WHY CAN'T I JUST BE COMFORTABLE IN MY OWN BODY AND NOT WORRY ABOUT WHAT MY MOM THINKS?
It's times like this that I really wish I was a man. Blergh.