so, there's this girl girl i've known since before she was born, grown up with, and see often. She's like a sister to me. i came out to her, and the rest of our Girl Scout troop this summer at our annual camping trip. and now, she was at my house for our monthly family Shabbat dinner, and she mentions these little things about her girlfriend.

GIRLFRIEND!!!!!! what the hell? when did this happen? why did i not know about this? i mean, i sorta kinda suspected, considering the way we acted together, but i never really thought she was gay. she always seemed uber-straight to me. but she was talking about how she went to prom with her girlfriend, was at her girlfriend's house before she came here, how she had kissed her outside the Jesus store.

i'm sorta in shock about it. everyone i know seems to be gay, or questioning. it's weird though, cuz i used to sort of like the fact that i was alone in it, and i think now i resent her because she's questioning/experimenting/gay as well. and i hate that i resent her, cuz she's my little sister, my friend, and i love her.