Okay, well, graduation was this friday! Yay. And my crush Emily came. I saw her standing there and she smiled at me :D Oh and at graduation i found out she just got a BOYFRIEND that same day. Bummer. She does like me, but I dunno. It's complicated.
But she still came to my bonfire/weenie roast graduation party. It was tons of fun but it took awhile because my parents were hanging around. It was funny cuz with my parents around everyone was acting awkward.
So, we were making smores, right? And I was like, "you guys I got chocolate syrup!" So Emily was like, "I can do kinky things with chocolate, especially chocolate syrup." So all the girls (four) ran to the tent. (Everyone at the party is either gay, bi, or curious) So we have our fun with chocolate lol. Not anything major but fun nonetheless. I was paired with Emily and the other two girls were together. I felt bad, but Emily said her bf gave her permission to do things. The stupid boy thinks its hot but oh well I had my time with her. Oh, and she taught me how to kiss.
Sadly she had to leave so I drove her home. Everyone wanted to come but she told everyone to stay. Then when we got to her house she kissed me goodbye.
Today, I had my graduation party that my parents threw me. Yay, she also got to come. We were more comfortable with eachother and stuff, and then we started leaning on eachother. Then, she said she didn't know if her boyfriend still allowed her to mess around. Then she said she didn't care anyway cuz she told him she'd choose me over him if I wasn't moving away. SUCKS.
That's what I don't understand. She doesn't want to get close and attached, yet we still kiss and cuddle. She doesn't want to officially date and stuff cuz I'm moving away, yet we're getting closer and closer everyday. I don't understand her "logic". Sure, I'm moving, but won't it hurt anyway? The feellings will still be there.
Oh, and the title. We were walking outside where we thought we were alone and we were about to kiss when we heard our friend yell at us and a whole crowd of kids came running. Her warning was too late though. All the kids were screaming, "Oh, you were kissing!" and stuff like that. They were teasing us, but I was having a heart attack. Luckily, we convinced them we were trying to get something out of her eye. Lol. Silly children.