Running Out Of Steam

Inkblot's picture

So, school is out in 15 school days, and 22 days total. This is fabulous, of course, but I'm finding I lack the motivation to keep up my work. Which is bad. For example, I am writing this journal entry instead of doing my homework. And it's almost 11:00.

Also, when I go off to highschool, I will be parted from my friend. The word doesn't do her justice. This girl is my pillar, my little sister, the love of my life and the absolute best person to have a conversation with. I don't want to leave her. Obviously, it's not like I'm moving out-of-state or anything, but seeing her will be more difficult. Oh well. We'll manage.

Added to end-of-the-year blahness, I haven't slept well in weeks. There's always some reason I need to be awake, and in that the reasons are good ones, sleep takes backseat. But it all adds up, and I'm goddessdamn tired. This doesn't bode well for the classes where paying attention requires all my mental faculties. If half of them are chanting "sleep, goddamn you, sleep!", they can't possibly focus on Pickett's Charge or any similar event. Oy.

My coming out at school has gone seemingly unnoticed. The only difference is that most of my friends make an effort to call me 'he', and I have to use the office bathroom. Hopefully highschool will go better, in that my mom talked to the powers that be there, to see what could be done. Sigh. It shouldn't be this difficult to exist, but it is. So there you go.

I want sleep, a shower and coffee, in that order. However, I am unlikely to get them for a while at the very least.

Bleh. Off to either do my homework or procrastinate some more. Sigh.

Comments

raining men's picture

Procrasinate

Procrastinating is fun. Don't worry about the lack of motivation, the end of school kilss everyone. i have now ended school and I still don't have any motivation

"Sexual intercourse began in nineteen sixty-three (which was rather too late for me)"

Lol-taire's picture

inkblot: hmm you should

inkblot: hmm you should really get back into sensible sleep patterns. You feel so much more at an equilbrium when you're rested. Also maybe try taking a vitamin suppliment or something. I started taking one because I was constantly exhausted and it really helped.

raining men: what are your plans for next year, fellow school leaver?

hebrew freak's picture

what happened to the sex?

what happened to the sex? that sounded like fun too.

Inkblot's picture

Yeah, but that one wore off.

Good idea though.

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