I know this seems like an odd thing to do after losing my mother, to make a journal entry in Damon's journal. I don't feel much like taking the time right now to go through the process of signing up for my own journal so I asked Damon if I could borrow his.
I did need to say thank you on my own, to some of Damon's friends. I'm sorry I don't know who you are but I have read the things you say and they are very much appreciated.
You and Damon are right, that a weight has almost been lifted from me even though I will miss my mom so much. It is the most difficult thing I have ever done to see my mom each day and know that she really doesn't know me or remember anything about the time we spent together.
Letting her go is hard but I know where she is now, she again remembers me as her son.
Damon is right also when he said that there is this time when you should be doing other things but are just not sure what they are. So I am here with Damon by my side and your thoughts in my heart, passing time because I don't know what else to do.
My father is Korean and my mom was American and the strangest thing that ran through my mind is that I have no evedence left now that I am half American.
Damon was also right if he ever called Wyoming a god forsaken place. It is, especially if you are gay. I hope to take him by the hand and lead the way out of here someday.
Thanks to John and Will and especially Damon who wrote the "Petals of White"