Okay, so I know I'm not supposed to obsess about this. And I know I'm not technically overweight (according to BMI and stuff). But I could definitely stand to lose weight. My figure annoys me. If I could just get rid of my stomach some, then I'd be okay. Yet, as much as I bitch about my weight (and I'm really sorry, because I'm aware that this post sounds really, really whiny, I just need to say it, 'cuz I've mostly done all this inside my head up to this point), I haven't really done stuff to change my diet (note: not "go on a diet"; I don't believe in "going on" a diet, because a diet is what you eat, and weight loss should be via a gradual but permanent change to healthier foods). And I get barely any exercise, and it's frickin' annoying because I actually really like soccer and am decent at most sports and enjoy them. I just don't have the time, or I don't have the energy, or I'm doing something else. Assuming I actually get outside, it's more often that I'm sitting there with a book or hanging with the old men at the chess tables. Arg. My lack of will power annoys me. And my dad is always bugging me to go out and do active stuff with him. I know he's right when he says I need exercise, yet he's so annoying about it, and it bugs me to hear it from him, and... arg. Sorry, I realize I'm whining.

I wrote guy-on-guy smut for a friend who requested a certain pairing. It was amusing. I liked the premise (shower-sex ^^ ), I might go back and try it with girls later and see how much better it is XD

And... I think I'm sick. Joy oh joy. I can barely speak. Mothers' day. My dad got me a present to give to my mom (a sugar holder thingie). My grandma has a bladder infection that my parents didn't tell me about that's apparently not going away....... and my mom wants to have us all go out and see her in NJ tomorrow, but I've got an essay to write, three tests to study for, a short story to write, and two chapters of Regents review to do. (Note: ZOMGREGENTS!! Scary... advice, anyone?), and a performance of two friends. Plus I'm supposed to finish that smut. Okay, jk about the last bit. But still, I've got a lot of stuff to do, and I'm not sure I've got time to go out to NJ--and I don't like going up there because it's a big schlep and it's not NY and it's not my room and it doesn't have my stuff: my documents, my sheet music, whatever. Mehhhh... 'tever. I'll deal.

I still don't know what the hell is going on with my best friend.

But, we had a dance on friday. I mean, she couldn't come (best friend). But... this girl K... who is dyke-y as can be... can dance. She can fucking dance. And she's hot. But I only watched her for a second so I wasn't, like, caught staring. And wow, Lin is hot. And I spent a lot of the dance watching girls XDD