Having one of those stretched out 'moments' where I crave a boyfriend, to talk to, to hang out, to hug, to lay my head down next to.

Think it's worth chancing a lot of things to ask a few boys that are leaving at the end of the year (i.e. graduating) whether or not they're gay? There's one that I have a crush on and makes my Gaydar beep on and off for, the other I'd just like to know. Pretty sure they wouldn't return to the school after this summer anytime when I'm here again, so hmm. I guess it doesn't help that another boy I'd like to 'ask' is one I have a huuuuuuge crush on and would love to see if he'd be up for some experimentation. Well hey, experience before college for me, experimentation for him... and a good time for him. Oi vey.

Still, an actual boyfriend would outdo finding out or messing around with any of the year older potential gays. Debating telling a female friend I'm gay before summertime since I wouldn't see her normally over the summer. Hoping I'll go to GREECE this summer! Lots of pretty boys theeeeeere mmm. Except I'd want to stay out after dark and do something dirty, and then be totally freaked because I don't speak Greek, it's night, and STD fear... and lack of any experience on my part.

Do I go away for University, or go to Toronto to find love and 'myself'? Or do I go away, and then come back to Toronto? Or do I just go away and have a more renowned education and somehow find love there?