I'm soooo.....uhh....confused? I dunno if that's the right word that I want to use. I dunno. There's this girl, who happens to be one of my really good friends, and I'm pretty positive I like her. I kinda think she might possibly feel the same, but I don't know. So it's not that I'm confused about the whole liking her thing, but rather I just don't know how to interpret her actions and words. She's like a really big church person, and thou shall do no wrong and stuff like that. She's talked about getting married one day and something else I think about finding the right guy? I can't really remember if that's what she said or not, but even after she says that kind of stuff I still can't help but feel like there's feelings both ways. I really just started hanging out with her last summer, like spending most of the summer with her, and basically every weekend now. She has never really had a boyfriend before, besides the middle school thing that we've all had. There's a lot of little things that makes me think she feels the same, like just how touchy-feely she can be. She'll always touch like my waist when I'm walking in front of her, ok well I kinda help because I'll just walk slow and she's trying to hurry me along, but ok I usually just push someone in the back not grab their waist. A few times she's grabbed my hands, like while I'm standing in front of her and she's sitting, yeah its amazing. Also, one time we were sitting somewhere and I like messed up her hair and she grabbed my hand and I dunno I think she was hot and my hands were cold so she held my hand to her face...for a long time. I haven't noticed her being that way with her other friends, and I guess some of the things I do for her I wouldn't do for a person that I didn't have a crush on, so you think she'd notice it. I mean I will pretty much do anything for her....anything. And I don't care, usually when someone asks me to do something that would be like way out of my way I get annoyed, but with her...it's different, I like to do things for her any chance I can. Ok, well I'm a senior and she isn't so I get open lunch and usually leave, and the only time I will go to lunch in school is to see her. Basically because she asks me to. She told me once that she missed me because I hadn't gone to lunch for a while, and hadn't seen her like the whole week besides that. So I told her I would go to lunch if we actually had a good lunch for once, so then I asked her what it was tomorrow, and she told me and I said that it wasn't good enough for me to go. I was just messing with her, but she said ahhh, please? So of course I asked her why and she said because I want to see you. And well that just made my day and of course I went to lunch because she seemed to want me to, and well would you say those kind of things to a normal friend? I dunno...I guess I might, depending on the situation. And I dunno...it's just so hot and cold with her, like sometimes when I want to leave early from meetings or something she'll say no and tell me to stay so I will, obviously. I can't say no to this girl. She's my weakness. I've noticed that she's not really close to too many other of her friends, like she doesn't stay in touch over the weekend or anything, and anytime she goes out of town we'll text, and she'll call me. And ok, wow, I just thought of this, but last month she went out of the state for something and we hung out the night before and we texted throughout the next day and she said she'd call me later because she had to go do something. And she did and like the first thing she said when we were talking was that she missed me, and I was like dork I saw you like less than 24 hours ago...and she said well it feels like a lot longer. And we talked for 15 minutes, and it made me feel so special that she called me and didn't bother to keep in contact with her other friends. She even brought me back a dorky souvenir cause I told her to, I was joking, but it made me super happy that she did. Gosh, I really do like this girl. She also went away this past weekend and I texted her and told her to have fun where she was going and not to come back with a boyfriend, and she said ok i won't. I'm gonna miss you :(. And then yeah...I don't normally say that stuff to my other friends, but I guess I don't have a really really really close friend, maybe its different when you are really close to a person. But anyway I told her we were hanging out this weekend because it was my birthday and she couldn't bail or I'd be sad, and she said ok ok I'd love to spend my friday with you. She just got back yesterday, and I saw her today after lunch and it was totally random because I don't usually see her after lunch and she ran, like seriously ran, and gave me a hug and said something like gosh I haven't seen you in soooo long. And I didn't really do anything, but I had to go throw something away and she was talking to my other friend who was with me so I start to walk away to the bathroom and she grabs my back pocket of my jeans! Like sticks her hand in it and pulls me back....I mean she was pretty much touching my butt. Oh gosh, that was so cute when she did it. So I told her to settle down I just had to throw something away. Then we sat and talked for like 10 minutes...ahh it was so great. But then I was sad when I had to go to class because I just wanted to be with her. Wow this is getting long. Ha sorry. Ok I'll wrap it up quick. So I planned on doing something with her, just her and I, this Friday, and I'm hoping something good will come out of it. It's actually getting nice so I was thinking we would go walk to our park and lay down and star gaze! We wanted to before but it was waaaaay too cold. So yeah that's my plan, and I just hope she doesn't have to babysit or something else. She is so absolutely gorgeous, and amazing, and perfect. And I like her a lot...and I just don't know if she would be weirded out if I told her how I felt. Like I don't want it to scare her, and have our friendship change at all because I like it where it's at, but it could be sooo much better. And yeah, sorry this turned out to be so incredibly long, and probably dumb....but I would really like some input on what to do about it? Does it sound like there's something more both ways, or is it just me? It kinda seems like I just want there to be feelings from her so I'm reading way too much into some situations.?