My mom and two sisters are visiting me at college for the weekend.
I really thought this was going to be weirder than it is. I haven't really had to make a big deal of it at all. When I first saw them, it felt a little funny. Last time they saw me I was more bi than gay, now I am a lot more gay than bi. (I am pretty darn sure I am a lesbian, but honestly, I am still getting used to the idea, still feeling unsure, etc.). Things haven't changed THAT much. I mean, I have changed, but the way they act around me really hasn't changed that much at all.
Aside from the obligatory talk about why it's not a good idea for me to be out to the whole family, it's been pretty smooth sailing. My mom doesn't like my new hairdoo (I have a soft mowhawk), but my sisters like it. One of them totally noticed it as a very "out" hairdoo. My mom keeps playing with it and trying to flatten it. I love it my new hair. It really screams dyke to me.
My family really is pretty cool. I am really free to talk about my gay friends and pretty much everything about my life.
I don't like that I can't tell everyone in my family. As a matter of fact, I really hate it. I know it's all for the best, and my financial situation depends on it, but I can't imagine seeing that side of the family again and not being completely out. I was obvious before, but now that I am comfortable with myself, I am even more obvious. How on earth am I supposed to see them again without them figuring it out?
My grandparants on one side would grit their teeth and bear it, although they would hate it and blame my mother somehow for who I am.
My other grandparents.....I have NO IDEA what they would do. They could be completely accepting or they could completely rip out my funding. I have no idea which. They are liberal, and very intellectual, but they are very midwestern, and they can be really conservative in a lot of ways. They have said hatefull things about muslims. I really don't know what they think of gays.