I wanted to come out to my sister by the end of the long easter weekend.. which means I only have one day left (no it's not just procrastination). We haven't had one on one time lately, her boyfriend is sort of living with us so he's always around now. He's an all-round pretty cool guy but last night was the first time I felt disgusted with him.

We all went to eat out at a small restaurant, really cool and classy joint. The waiter/owner brought out our food, he looked fairly butch but had an effeminate voice and manner. After he left, I saw my sister's boyfriend snigger and say a few things to my sister that the waiter was obviously a "poof" (your aussie/english equivalent to fag). I looked at them both, him in particular and said "guys don't be rude". I surprised myself because I said it in a fairly serious way, they were taken off guard by my reaction and shut up. Later on after we had finished eating, the waiter was back and collected our plates. My sister's boyfriend watched the waiter while he was serving other tables and then proceeded to do a stupid gay impression (lisp, hand actions and all). My sister did laugh but she playfully punched him. I pretended that I didn't see or hear what they were talking about and ignored them, I made sure I had on my slightly pissed off face too hehe. In the corner of my eye, I think my sister saw that I wasn't impressed by her boyfriend's behavior. And yeah she was right, I wasn't. I thought it was really immature and disrespectful to mock people especially in their environment when they have been nothing but awesomely nice to you. If racism isn't acceptable, I don't think homophobia should be either.. I don't see how they are different things.

I hate how straight guys think all gay guys are girly and weak, it's just a bloody stereotype.. there are a ton of gay guys out there who could kick his scrawny straight ass easy. And seriously, so what if your waiter is gay, is it really your concern that this stranger who is serving you food tonight is going home to fuck George or Georgia, or both? Is his sex life really relevant to your rice noodles right now? People are so stupid *smacks head*

So anyway.. coming out to my sister doesn't seem like a big deal the more I think about it, I'm almost convinced she already knows. I think the next step is just getting it out there in the open. That doesn't mean it's going to be easy.. but at least my confidence is building and I know it will eventually happen. I'm kinda just really tired of keeping it a secret and feeling sorry for myself because of it.. I'm the only one that can change things so what am I waiting for right.