whoa.. it's been a really long time since i last write here..
hhmm, i just miss the feeling of writing here..since i don't have a journal myself...i treat this as my journal with some comments here and there which is like the journal talk back to me o.O
anyway, i went to a gym lately near my house just to keep myself fit cause i'm kinda weak.
and i don't know why i like girls who are taller than me.
-.- most girls are taller than me anyway
anyway, i try to make eye contact with this girl
* but she's malay* aarrgghh.... malay can't be lesbians right...
well, when she look at me i don't know why i'll pretend that i don't know and i'll just look somewhere else
then i'll regret it later..arrgghh...
and the other day in toilet i came out and wash my hand..she stand beside me a few feet away and i don't know why i don't dare to look her in the eyes and i pretend i didn't see her too...
sigh, when i wanted to go back..waited for my mom..
i was standing there talking with my friend and trying to get a glimpse of her whenever i can
then she look up and smile at me and for that moment i feel numb and i can't move then quickly give a small smile at her....then she look away..
aarrgghh...should i wave? say hi to her?
i don't know what to do... i'm scare that she's not a lesbian....
what should i do? or should i just forget about her and continue my workout?